I try so hard to get into the world that belongs to you... As you ask me last night why do i treat you in a so bad manners and lost my temper... but i couldnt answer u as i actually doesnt really know what my heArt thinking and feeling... Maybe you are right, u gave me the hints that i am thinking i still couldnt accept your life and your job.. U said u already came into my life and accept everything of me... and now we are married, i shouldnt lost my temper on you... but i just cant control myself.. Im so sorry to just keep quiet and keep blogging as i doesnt know who should i approach to especially... i doenst know how to express my feeling to you..as when i tell u my feling, mayb we end up in a quarrel or mayb...........? (upset)
U let me knew that since we are married u start ""that"" thing. I blame myself whether am i the one who gave u a lot of burden untill u need that kind of thing? If ya, then what should i do?? And why u keep lying on me untill i discovered myself? Last night u told me i should be prepared to face all this as i knew u are coming to this "world" (p/mun). If so, then can i answer he should also be prepare as your wife is not a loyal wife as last time i betrayed u once~and that time u choosed me back but also let me feel back the same feeling as u purposely show me u have an affair with other gal. Then why u want me back? to revenge? i understand u really love me and wanted to test on me how do i treat u, am i right?? I duwana mention the past but i jus cant stop thinking all those thing.. after married, i already forgot all the past, but the depressed feeling came back to my life. I had nightmare almost everynight.. i doesnt really know what i am thinking, or mayb some matter that is not bout you...
If one day u could read this blog, and i really hope the end is you choose the right path and a bright future for me and baby~ and remember, you have a choice, so why do you wanna get so trouble doing illegal thing, passing those "dirty" life? Waiting for the day!!! expiry : SOON !!
Hope u understand!!!!!!
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lynette, feel free to find me for a talk if u feel u need to express sth... friend is for used sometime.... dun stress out... be happy while waiting the baby to b delivered ok? :) all of us, ur friend wil definitely support u :)
ReplyDeletelynette, don feel so depressed lar..after read yr blog, feel like u are in a difficult stage to choose wht is de best for urself n baby. but now the things is not just within u n ur husband.. ur baby is comin to the world soon .to see mummy n daddy. i reli hope both of u will be in a good condition n bring out a happy life to baby.. anyway, as wht kah yee said find her if u need someone..u can find me too..don keep everything in heart.voice out everything will be better for u! be strong & be positive! love you!
ReplyDeleteLynette that I noe is a happy go lucky person, dont be depressed, take good care of yourself, your baby also will sad if you're sad, because she/he noe your feeling. No worry, you still got frens and your baby very care you, if you dowan to talk with anyone, maybe you can talk to you baby?
ReplyDeleteStay strong pretty mummy~
lynette,it's been a long time didn't chat or talk with you dy, after reading ur blog, felt sad for it..sincerely hope u could deliver ur baby happily and have ur career back...although things are tough for you now but pls dun give up k..Be strong..all the best for u and ur baby :)
ReplyDeletethank you for all my dear friends... yup, i admitted i have lots of friends, but not everything u can tell put to your friends right?
ReplyDeleteAnyhow, thank you all u guys, love u all..
As Yen said, i am always a happy go lucky person... so i will be strong to face everything~