Road ---> Direction ----> Future -----> ????

1st Sept 2009 12.34am
Why do i so upset ? Why do i so desperate? Why do i think so much as we doesnt really know how our future will be? Why do i choose the road that is so tough to go thru?? If i hadn't quit the bank job, i wont be thinking so much, mayb i regret i quit the job so eargerly? Why don't i listen to the elder's advise? Living without income is simply tough for me!!!! Maybe because of i am pregnant now so cant get a job, but i make a promise to myself, i wont jus stay at home like that and take care of a child from now till i grow old... i admit i like children alot, but i couldnt just waste my life taking care if baby like that.. I must have my own careeer. I just cant depends on someone or family. By now, i do really understand what should come first, but maybe is too late. However, i wont just let my life go on like that. If i would have own career, i am sure i wouldnt be so tension now.

Do i feel regret on the path that i had choosen now?? I cant really answer myself. All i want is jus a normal and happy life and family..,without risk and worriness.
Why at the end what i get is im always worry, upset and desperate? Maybe my words is too harsh to him thru this passage, i am sorry but is a just the most easier way for me to express my feeling.
XXXXXX, if u do love a person, i think all you should do is show him/her your care, your love, let him feel safety and comfortable being along with you, and NOT those worries and heart feeling on him/her, right??
Yup, absolutely CORRECT, i started to understand, we shouldnt be so selfish as we already owned something that is called "FAMILY". You should take good care of it, and not just to go the way you like it, without caring your family members's feeling.
I understand i should understand your thinking and your needs.!!!!